falling with a 'thud'

Sometimes optimism can be a bitch ! you think positive and think that things will work out... but naaah! it doesnt happen sometimes that way ! Life can be a bitch some times - Hell bent upon teaching bitter lessons. But hey, what to do if I refuse to learn from my mistakes... well instinctiveness can also be a bitch sometimes !! Nonsense can also be a bitch sometimes - making me feel as if I am the only one making a mistake in the process of trying to make things work out. As if the others are perfection and matuarity personified. And then sometime I myself am a bitch - i write posts like this !! Lol ! Everythings a bitch sometimes - Ha ! Ha ! Ha !

NEWS

NEWS - is North East West South. I don't find any of that on TV. Whatever happened to good old information !!!! And the sight of Barkha Dutt makes me puke. Once upon a time she was my 'dream date' ! Lol ! The Headley 'investigation' sounded like some soap from primetime tv - what with all the sound effects and background razzmatazz ... whew! I just dont feel like watching news on tv.

Grrrr !!! :-{

All my life I thought am a Sagittarius, but now am finding many astrology columns listing out my birth date under the capricorn section !! what the hell is this?
how can the dates change ....? I was born a sagittarius as till a few months ago sagittarius was till 22nd december. And today I find two columns in different publications saying sagittarius is till 20th december.... buggers knocked off two days and in the bargain made me into a completely different personality !!

buggers !!! :-(

Say it Possible & still not possible

I can't believe I missed Terra Naomi's visit to Bangalore. God, I read about it and then made plans and then completely forgot about it. Screw you Anup !!!!!

Oh one more of my much awaited events has passed by without me making it there.
To those who do not know about her, just do a google search or go to youtube and listen to "Say it possible" . And if you like her music, then please come back and thank me ( i love some sense of self-importance ). Read about how she made her music famous ! Watch out for more of her in the years to come !! Thats my word for it !

Hey btw, did any of you check out Ronan Keating's version of Time after Time? Lovely he sings. Naomi also has done a video cover of the same song.... again her vocal abilites stand up. But Ronan you rock too man !! Check out his new album "Songs for my mother". :-)

Nice - The best biscuit in the world

Did I tell you all that 'Nice Time' from Britannia is my favourite biscuit in the world? Now, how do you care for that piece of news? Well, you should if you know that I can even kill anyone, be mean, lose my cool and sulk like hell if I am deprived of this piece of heaven that Vinita Bali's company makes ! It used to be called 'Nice' till a couple of years ago before Britannia renamed it as Nice Time. So my mom knows this as Nice and buy this always whenever she shops for her tea-time snacks.

Wow, irresistable and mouth watering...no other food in this world ever tastes better in my mouth than this biscuit. Lovely ! Ummmm.... dream date would be a cup of tea and Nice Time bisucits :-) and oh ya a girl too if unavoidable ! ;-P but she wont get more than one biscuit.

I have to dedicate this post to the only food in the world that makes me ecstatic. Bravo ! Ever tried dal, rice, veggies, chicken fry and Britannia Nice time biscuits? Well, even I have not. but its lying there in front of me and i will try it out. I love you Nice :-)

I believe in Angels

In continuation to the last post, I had this song on my lips whenever I was thinking about what I wrote in the last post. While on my way back from work, I started humming this song, which I had heard first on the 'Coast to Coast' album of Westlife in 1999. Its ABBA's 1979 song 'I Have a Dream'. Love the sitar riff and the lyrics.
In my downcast mood as described in the last post, I kept on humming this song and surprisingly felt better. Still do. I believe in each word of the song. Strange how some songs you never forget and come back to you at key moments of your life.

I have a dream,
a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder,
of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels,
Something good in everything I see,
I believe in angels,
When I know the time is right for me,
I'll cross the stream,
I have a dream

I have a dream,
a fantasy,
To help me through reality,
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness
still another mile
I believe in angels,
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels,
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream


I have a dream,
a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder,
of a fairy tale
You can take the future,
even if you fail
I believe in angels,
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels.
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream
I have a dream
I'll cross the stream
I have a dream

:-)

Biggest success of my professional career was today. And somehow it feels so so so not worth it when I realise that I don't really have anyone to share this with other than my mother. Called her up immediately and obviously she was happy. But sometimes its just not enough. You want that someone to be there with whom you can gush about it, describe it, tell about the ups & downs while working towards your mission, etc etc. Felt like calling up a potential 'good friend' but then refrained knowing that that person is least intersted. Felt like calling up my best friend, but then he would be busy and we don't normally gush and swoon over things like this. We are too 'chilled out' for that kind of a talk.

It would have been nice if I could come back home, take a shower and go out for a quiet drink with someone, take a walk, sit on a bench in some park, watch the clouds and the moon and just feel immensely satisfied at a job well done after one year of effort. Instead what did I do? - sit up till late in office, eat some &*$%#@& meals, come home and sleep. Then I took too much of pity on myself and texted someone in the hope that I could get an ear. But nopes, all are either too busy or do not really care about me. So again I took too much of pity on myself and started this rant over my blog. Lovely na ! Anyways only time it hurts is when I think of the innumerable times that I have lent an ear to their rants, their joys and sorrows, sometimes at the cost of my own work and convenience. This someone has called me and got all hour long lessons on various things in the middle of the night or middle of my work and I have never refused - realising that how much its important for me to listen and be there. Well, am also human and I also sometimes make the mistake of expecting something or the other from people around me. Like how I expected my big bosses to react when I showed them the big deal that I cracked. Expected them to praise me ( ya, no shame in accepting that I long for praise). But they just nooded their heads and got on with their work. Does it hurt? No, but it's dissappointing. But it hurts when someone for whom you have always been there, does not react the way you want them to. No, in fact even if they dont react the way you want them to, its still ok. But its when you make it so conspicious to them that you need someone to talk to, and yet they ignore you, thats when it hurts.

Thank god for mothers. If she had not called me up in the evening and spoken about it, I would have felt very bad. She at least knows that all I need is two minutes of human voice or human touch to boost my spirits. Hmmmm... so thats it... frustruating realising that probably this is why people get married. They will have someone to come back to, some bosom to rest their heads on in joy or in sorrow, some soothing words or touches to make you feel cared for. Beiing together matters. A lot. Distance doesnt make the hearts grow fonder. It just erodes the important role that eyes play.

Chalo its getting to be a long post without any intent. So I will stop now.
Celebrate all you lucky ones....but don't derive sadistic pleasure. God doesn't like sadists :-) Lol !