Home ?? Leave?? - What about the work ??

One sms - that's all it takes to brighten up your day ! I was facing the prospect of a very bleak day at office today. Lot of talks are on about holidays, with many ppl going off on week long vacations taking advantage of Good friday hols etc. To add to that there are many who are taking holidays for the april first and second weeks to take advantage of Ugadi hols... boy ! And here was I wondering about my situation - Not been home since June ! Earlier I was waiting for my first order. I though I would clinch the prestigeous deal and then ask for leave, with pride.
But once I got the order, I was busy executing it and also running after other clients - The TATA SKys, the Metlifes, the Satyams, the Britannias, the Titans, Saskens etc etc...all on my radar, meeting the IT heads, meeting the purchase heads, the project heads... all of it was giving me a heady feeling.

Although I had it at the back of my mind that i should ask for leave, yet i didn't

I always thought that I was not in a good position to ask for leave. With my meagre salary I was not willing to fly and also I didn’t want to go for just a couple of days. I wanted atleast a week at home.
Hmmm… sales is a profession in which there is no end to your work… there is no completion of any project unlike in the other fields.. it’s an on going process. First its engaging the customer in talks, then positioning some product/service/solution, then negotiating for clinching the order, then processing the order. Even after you get the order, you need to execute it, trouble shoot it and then look after the after-sales support. In HCL that the biggest advantage and disadvantage – the account manager is responsible for end-to-end processes unlike in MNC firms where there are separate ppl for each part of the sales cycle.
So I ended up always having some work or the other. Now when I see ppl leaving for their homes, some for the second time in 8 months, I feel sad.
When will I have the guts and the credibility to ask for leave. ?
Oh yeah, my sister sent me this sms from Chennai where she lives alone –
“ Very true:- The person who loves you more,
Will fight with you more,
But when you drop a tear,
They will fight the world to stop your tears.
Trust in them !! “

That’s all it took to cheer me up. Who says separation reduces the affection? That’s only for people who look for gains in every relationship. I know that me and my sister have found a new meaning to our relationship. I don’t really need to go home. When you carry the love in your hearts, what the need for the familiar four walls ( yeah, yeah .. roll your eyes… this is a way I can pacify myself that its no big deal, not to be home – my chance will come, when the TIME IS RIGHT !! )
CHEERS !!! ENJOY MADI !!!