Loss of a Prayer !

I had a prayer , the only one I had.
It was my wish, my dream and my life.
It was strong, and it was to right a wrong.

The only thing that came to my mind when I saw God,
The only thing that was felt in my heart when I felt God.
The only thing that I heard when I heard from God.

So many things I could have wished for from HIM, but still everytime it was the same wish !

And now, I met a breeze, that had blown from her lands and I heard it whispering to the trees near the balcony of my room ! I overheard and stood mortified :-(

Standing in front of the Lord for my daily prayer ritual, I froze !
Mind drew a blank, heart ceased its feeble attempt at shivering.
I was standing to say my prayer, yes, the very same prayer.
But I could not.
If I said that, then I would be wishing for the unhappiness of the poor soul I was praying for. I could not say it, it would be wrong on my part to wish for something at the cost of someone else's loss.

My body crumpled, my eyes shed a dry tear.
The heart dissolved in my blood.
Nothing, absolutely nothing. Zilch !
Why was I standing there....

God said, "its wrong to wish for something that is not yours."
I protested, "But I do not want it to be mine ! I just want it to be with me !"God said, "Ask for something else son, this I can't give. I do not control this !"
I said, " I do not care about anything as much as I care about this. If I have to pray then I will pray only this. If you cannot give then I do not need a prayer"
God said, " Prayer is not only for oneself, pray for others as well "
I sunk further into the ground and said, "God, this means that you never listened to my prayers. Every prayer of mine has been for someone other !"

God said, " Then in that case, I am sorry son, I think you just lost your prayer and the right to pray"
I protested, " How can I lose it so quickly? "
God said, " Is it not better if Death comes faster ! "

I found a prayer on July 24th,2007 and lost it on January 14th, 2008.